Yeah, I have been silent a long time....not felt like I had anything to say...cause it felt like I was over and done with the past....then I get a visit from my aunt and uncle.....
We had a very nice talk. They brought back a lot of good memory's.....but they also took me back....to my younger years. It brought on a lot of thoughts....let me tell the story....
You all read about my abusive stepfather, the one who was all over me and tried to rape me right. My mom has kept her mantra, I did not know....I did not understand.....now I had forgiven her for all that.....and then I find out she told all of the family, aunt, uncle, grandma and grandpa and all else around to not listen to me...to not believe me if I started telling such stories.....4 years before I even told her what was going on.
Now wait a minute....how did that work with I did not know.....
So fuck that (excuse my language). She is full of lies and I am done.
I started the next phase of my life.....and I am going to put that behind me. I left my homecountry and moved to my husband and my life has to much joy for me to contaminate it with that, neither will I let my dads lies and gossip after I moved hurt me. I am done.
Got everything I ever dreamed of, life is good. I am done with this blog I think.....cause I am where I dont need to move forward to something better anymore....I am there.
I am where I can sleep. I don't dream horrible nightmares. I feel safe and I feel loved.
Now I wish all my readers a great life...and a wonderful future, who knows...I might write again......but then it will be about something else.....not so dark.
Or.....I will do as a few asked...take this and fill in the rest and write a book.
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