Being a girl

All things changed when my brother arrived,

Suddenly my dad wouldnt take me with him to the garage. I was told to go out and play and stay out of the way.

My aunt and uncle that used to live with us was no longer there.

Nothing was the same.

I didnt understand a thing.

My parents started fighting a lot. I didnt know why, it only scared me. I was thinking it was cuase I was bad and that I had done something wrong.

I had been very sick since I was a very little baby. Lots of stays in the hospital. Now my parents got a perfect baby, a healthy baby and I was just trouble.

I was still sick but at least I didnt have to stay a week in the hospital every month.

I loved my brother then and I love him today. He never asked to be born and he didnt make our dad love him more. And not matter how hard I would try I could not be the son my dad wanted.